STORY TIME ... If you're enjoying a beverage of any kind right now, I suggest you put it down a moment. I won't be long...
On Friday a friend was over, and we were talking about things we loved that have passed on. She's decided that she will start cremating her pets when they pass (horses and dogs primarily) and keeping them on a beautiful display.
I told her the story of a vase with a lid my grandmother had for many years, that my brother and I decided we'd display at the funeral. The Director said we could have used that vase as an urn to keep her, it just needed to be sealed.
This revelation story meant that my friend could then collect various more fun containers for CHEAP or free instead of spending a million bucks on official urns - like teapots and such.
I cautioned her "You just have to mind how much cremains you will end up with. I'm sure your horses will have more than a human... HEY I still have my Grandmother here as we haven't been able to spread her ashes yet, let me go get them!"
... I got up to go find the velvet bag in which she currently resides ....
to find ...
that
I
COULD
NOT
REMEMBER
WHERE
I
PUT
MY GRANDMOTHER'S CREMAINS!!
Advance to next afternoon when I return home from errands and look up and go
"Oh! Hey Nana! -- hey Honey!? FOUND HER! .. she's on the top of the cupboard in the laundry room."
... because the liquor cabinet was too full. 🤣
(Phew! thats not a conversation I wanted to have with my brother!
I mean, I WiLL because it's hilarious...but not because I lost her.)
Imagine .. this date is fast approaching. I am both happy and sad to see it.
He doesn't drive. We feel traffic would be an issue, but a huge ride on mower and putting the trailer into it's spot are just fine.
He works with me 2 days a week. That's all the business can afford right now - they KNOW they're helping us out significantly. We are so grateful that he has that - but I'm not sure it will truly ever be much more.
Haven't seen the kids since just after Christmas. I don't think he hears from them. Doesn't hear from family really at all.
Our friends have really stepped up and welcomed him as he is. We all needed a break to allow ourselves to all change and adapt after Covid and lock downs and this... so it's going well.
The Echo says his heart is working back up to normal pressure again since the PFO closure.
It kind of rushed over me this morning during my wake up ritual .. this has been a pretty heavy week already and it's ONLY Wednesday.
In order of how they dropped -
We haven't seen Smudge (the youngest male cat) since Friday - possibly Saturday morning. It was a gorgeous weather couple days Friday and Saturday and the farming community was out and at it busy on our property and the neighboring farms. He's been an outdoor cat for a bit now and has managed a night or two outside on his own, but on Monday morning my stomach started to turn that he hadn't shown up.
Monday morning DH and I went to tour the Brain Injury place - my hopes to find him a place to feel like he's really not alone and for us to both increase his speaking and opportunity to speak and find more ways to help him find the words. It wasn't as much as I'd hoped, mostly because they're still limited in how many people they can have in person. I am afraid the longer it takes him to find places to supplement therapy things, the harder it will be for him to repair the lost communication. So that was a bit of a let down for the time being.
On the way to work, my StepMom called and said they had sad news there... my heart of course dropped.. but she wasn't crying, so it was a very uneasy moment.. her brother's cancer had taken over and he was in a lot of pain. He'd just called to let them know he was doing Assisted end of life Tuesday morning. My dad was also very close to him and it really shook him too. I got to talk to my dad for a couple minutes and I did my best to be supportive for him.
After hanging up, I thought I should try to find some scripture to send over to them on Tuesday. As I said, it's now Wednesday - and I completely forgot to do anything for them.
Monday after work we raced home to use the daylight to our advantage and did a walk around the property to see if we could spot a cat body. Nothing.
So we hopped in the car and popped over to a friends for a drink to celebrate her birthday. The first playoff hockey game was on, and of course, one of our other friends popped in for her too, so this turned into watching the game, having pizza and in general a good evening.
uesday was a weird day right from the start. DH and I have been in good joking mood and spirits, but it's been sinking in my tummy that he's not there. Smudge is a part of 4 four-leggers that I need to deal with when my feet hit the floor in the morning. Each has their own routine inside of mine and I'm missing one and I don't like having to adjust to it already. He would only be 2 on Aug 1 this year.
o in and around my head being a little off, I got the call we have been waiting for since January for DH's heart procedure. They're booking for May 17.
Yep, that's now 13 days away. It's supposed to be a straight forward procedure. In the US I see that they do them a lot, and I would venture to say that they do a lot of them here too, but our medical systems are very different and it wouldn't be advertised the same way it is there.
I haven't told him yet, because there's a chance they could change it. I will tell him by Friday. He has to take some meds for 5 days before, so he will need some heads up for sure.
From Google:
What happens after a PFO closure?
After a PFO closure, you may be able to leave the hospital the same day or after an overnight stay. Before you leave the hospital, a chest x-ray and/or echocardiogram will be performed to make sure your PFO closure device is still positioned properly.
I got this the other day, and you better believe it's the shirt I will lay out for him to wear the day he goes in *bahahaha* No - it's NOT open heart surgery... and quite likely he won't have to stay over night because of the covid things, but I will be home with my guy and take the best care of him for as long as he needs me at his side.
After dropping it all out like this and listing them off, it's understandable in my head once again as to WHY my body feels heavy or distracted. There's good reason. <3
