1:25pm My first visit to you after your escape from the stroke ICU ward. You were taken down for an test around 11:45 and they're about 2 hrs. So I'm checking out your new digs.
Only 4 ppl in here. Instantly smelled like someone is lying in a pile of their own feces. 🤮 I'm trying not to gag. I'm so glad I have this little bit of acclimation time to your space before you get back. I'm hoping you'll be pleasantly surprised.
The temperature in here is that in between some level of covers and no covers. I'm never dressed properly. Your fire rescue hoodie, shorts, a tank top and flip flops. It is pretty warm out.
Your lunch is patiently waiting here for you. Doesn't look too bad actually. Just cooler than when they brought it.
Tv and wifi is free thanks to covid, so youre on a sports channel.
The man directly across from you has a lady visitor. Their chatter is all the noise in here. Much nicer than the other room, but when she goes, or you get back, my voice will carry like hers is now. Hopefully we won't bother anyone else.
Your nurse today is quite cute, and very sweet.. redhead, Alicia.
I can't wait to see you❤️
3:47pm
I.cant.stop.bouncing!!!!!
I haven't seen you do all things things you've gotten back, I haven't heard a single sound from your lips, and I asked you to show me...
And you blew my MIND.
The Occupational Therapist said you got up and went to the bathroom without help or telling anyone you needed help. (We are so lucky you managed it on your own!!) So they pushed you a bit..and you pushed harder. You went from walking 6 meters in the morning, to walking all the way down the hall for me. 24 meters.
I watched your face. Your determined, block out the world concentration. And you did it.
When I think about it tears come to my eyes. I'm so happy for you and what strength you have.
You even tried to talk for me. We talked about finding you a word board and maybe that would help, and you nodded that you'd be willing to try. I asked if the words just swim around in your head ..I pictured like maybe they're floating and you can't pick the next word and then you can't figure out yet how to make it come out of your mouth and you nodded. I watched your slight frustrated face change and you stare right into my eyes as if to tell me telepathically. I wish you could too baby. But you tried for me, and you have no idea how MUCH that means to me.
And when I had to leave so you could go for another test (and my time was up), the OT said that visitation will open up to allow 2 of us to come see you in the same day. This means I can come every day. And my crazy need to see you won't have to be interrupted because your mom or Raynen need to see you.
While this was a shitty interruption of life, with all the covid issues - we couldn't be luckier in the timing. ❤️
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